I thought a picture is worth a thousand words, and I received 2 emails from my friends asking me what I am actually having? Haaaaa......I guess babies, boy or girl, seem to look alike and "a picture is worth a thousand words" doesn't apply to babies ....haaa.....
Four months ago, I shared about being the only girl at home, how I really wished to have a sister whom I can share anything and everything under the sun. I am not really closed to my mother, but at least, with a sister, she will understand the struggles and the ups and downs that I have been through, and vice versa. I never had a sister, and though I have two brothers, we are never that closed. Afterall, boy and girl are made differently, and my brothers will never understand what I have been through as our thinkings are so different. Being the eldest girl, it's really hard to be a role model for my two brothers, and their masculinity somehow contradicted with my femininity. Therefore, being the eldest as girl, I always acted tough hoping for their submission and acceptance. It didn't work, and I felt left out when none of my brother respected me as their elder sister. I didn't remember three of us playing together because afterall I am a girl, and I played my paper doll. While two of my brothers would play combats and sword fighting, I was playing my paper doll alone. I tried to play the same boy stuff with them but it didn't last long as afterall, I am a girl and combats and sword fighting were not my interest. How I wished to have a sister whom I could play tea-party, paper doll, or dressing up with! All these never happened!
When I had my littlehon, Rodney was extremely happy because he just loves boys. When I knew we are having another one, Rodney longed for another boy because he simply loves boys! As for me, it doesn't matter boy or girl as long as they are healthy. However, I told God that since I have a boy, it really matters to me whether the next one is a boy or girl because I am seriously hoping for another boy. Don't get me wrong, I do like girls, but since my littlehon is a boy, I really want to have another boy for his companion. I want my littlehon to have someone whom he can really play with, the boy stuff, and someone whom he can be a real role model to as big brother, unlike me when I was younger. I prayed really hard, and God really answered my prayer!! I was overwhelmed when we found out that we are going to have another boy!! I thank God for His Masterpiece, and indeed He knew what I had been through when I was young, someone who longed for a sister, someone whom I can grow up together with even when my parents are gone someday.
I remembered when the radiologist told me that it was a boy, I was literally crying because indeed God has heard my prayer! I could see a sense of relief on Rodney's face because he longs for another boy. I believe if we were to have another child, he will want a boy too, and likewise! I just can't wait for His Masterpiece to grow up a little so that my littlehon and His Masterpiece could wrestle, and play their boy stuff together. At least either of them will not feel left out, and they can do things together, and stop bothering their Mommy .....haaa.....I am so glad to have two sons because they have each other to share, play, confide with each other with brotherly love. When we know the gender of His Masterpiece, we decided to let our littlehon to play a big part of His Masterpiece's life, and that's to choose a name for him. We were glad that we did that as we wanted our littlehon to be involved in His Masterpiece's life even before he was born, and we hope it would be a topic that they could talk about as they get older. I want to thank God for answering my prayers, and indeed, ask and it will be given! All glory unto God Almighty!
